Today is just one of those days that I want to dig a whole and jump in. I'm not a super Mom...even as a Christian with Christ...I still struggle. I know there are many Moms out there who have it all together and a picture perfect...I am not, nor do I attempt to create an image that I am. Today I have two sick extremely fussy kids and a mouthy hormonal teenager. I just get to a point where I feel I have nothing left to give. I finally got Eli to sleep after massaging his head and face. He has a sinus infection...so I'm sure the massage felt wonderful. Zahavah is another story. Nine months old...awake since 7ish and has yet to nap. And it never fails when I call upon that person in my life who you think would understand and offer to help from time to time...she is unavailable and only has unhelpful advice to throw around. At least the baby quit crying. I guess there is really no point what so ever in this post except to vent that I'm having a horrible day...and that is what journals are for. Hopefully tomorrow will be better...10 hours in the van w/ all three of them!